Life is hard. I feel like I have woken up from a long nap.
It’s like I am slowly realizing the dream I was living in has ended. “Time to wake-up!” Now I have a lot of growing to do if I want to become a person I love. Instead of the last few years of just surviving, I need to focus on thriving.
It’s scary. I feel confronted by difficulties. It is very scary. I am always worried about messing up, getting in over my head, or how the consequences will hurt my heart. And it seems like everything, even good growth, hurts my heart.
Maybe I should think of it like stretching muscles before starting a work-out. It might not feel great, but it is getting me ready to do something much more demanding. And it’s a necessary step.
Maybe I should try not to think about it too much.