I’ve already failed on my New Year’s Resolutions the first day. I shopped online and I didn’t journal or write.
Before waking up at 4pm on the 1st day of a new year, I was up all night. And at the time I was still optimistic about two new goals.
I read about a year of not shopping here and I found it compelling. I gained weight three years ago and so I know I have enough clothes for any size I might weigh (except more 😲 ). I could still buy kids’ birthday gifts and do Christmas in 12 months. Books, children’s clothes, food, household items would all be allowed. But clothes, toys, shoes, make-up, accessories, furniture and all other sorts of luxuries would be banned for a year. I could make an exception for tennis shoes if mine fall apart and I kno I need a toddler’s step stool. But I really don’t forsee needing to buy so much of the other stuff I do want to buy. Although I have bought decorations and paper products for Jake’s past birthday parties, this year balloons and cake would be fine, but the themed plates, napkins, and hanging decorations would not.
I hope I will see noticeable savings. It would be exciting in 12 months if I might have a list of items I truly want for Christmas (like tennis shoes).
Honestly, I spent a lot of money last year, even for me, thus I think I have excess of everything. I shopped a lot. Probably like the author of the article, I too wanted a distraction from the pessimism I feel so regularly.
Writing is a longterm practice I want to make a daily habit. Sort of, because I actually feel ambivalence about writing daily since it means I will have to slow down and peek into my current state of being. I am afraid to deal with my negative feelings.
Which is why I bought myself a pair of leggings and played videogames for almost 12 hours straight. Shopping and distracting media keep uncomfortable emotions on the peripheral of my consciousness.
So, post one, a day late. I feel sick and guilty, and don’t want to commit to resolutions I found too hard to keep for even 24 hours.
But I suppose that’s why daily practice matters. You have to try every day first until you develop a habit.